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As I've been planning Ledger's Birthday party, I've been soo excited.
Excited to have a 1 yr old.
Excited that we have a Birthday to celebrate.
And that we're having a party, instead of visiting 
the cemetery in tears.

But I've been surprised how upset I've been.
Next month will mark two years of Preslee passing away.
Two whole years.
We were never able to celebrate two Birthdays with her,
instead, it will be 2 angelversaries.
Its a pretty unfair trade if you ask me.

12/17/09
What I wouldn't do to tickle that little tummy.

Monkey, just know you are never far from my mind.
And I still love you more than ever.
And instead of being angry, or upset, 
I'm trying to focus on the fact how blessed we were to 
celebrate the one Birthday we had with you.

And I can't help but smile, when we ask Ledger where Preslee is. He points to the picture of you.

There's nothing more sweet to me, 
than establishing connection between the two of you.

Love,
Your Mama
// Labels: Ashley, grief, His Family, Ledger, Patrick, Preslee
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9 comments:

  1. Trent SiddowayJune 13, 2012 at 8:35 AM

    That is a fun picture of her. You can just see the happiness in her eyes. I will never forget eating her birthday cake by candle light. Grandpa Siddoway

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  2. KerriJune 13, 2012 at 9:38 AM

    What a cute picture of Preslee! That is so cute and sweet that Ledger points to her picture and knows who she is. I started following your blog not long after the accident. I can't believe it's been almost 2 years. It's interesting because the day she passed away is our wedding anniversary. A day that we celebrate is such a hard day for you. I admire your strength. You are amazing! I can't believe Ledger is almost one. My daughter will be one next month. Time goes by way to fast!

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  3. Laurin ClackumJune 13, 2012 at 10:46 AM

    Heartbroken for you. Consider yourself drenched in prayer today.

    So glad that Ledger is already forming such a strong bond. What an amazing big sister he has to look up to. Only one birthday and yet she has impacted SO many. How amazing.

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  4. Auntie EMJune 13, 2012 at 12:10 PM

    So sweet....I can see by the pictures how much she was loved then and is loved just as much now. I can't comprehend how much you, your husband and family miss her. I only know from my own life and my own perspective how hard it is to miss someone you love with every fiber of your being and it is hard for sure. I'm glad you are feeling blessed. It is hard road to get to that point. I hope Ledger has a fun first birthday and you make wonderful memories tomorrow. I kow with all my heart that the Lord will make all things perfect someday and what a day that will be for you and your Preslee.

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  5. Seeing Each DayJune 13, 2012 at 1:22 PM

    I comment rarely on your blog but when I do I always have to mention your strength and your honesty as you continue to travel this road. You have taught me alot (and I'm 41!). I also wanted to commend you on your act of bravery when running past that difficult route last week.

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  6. LinsyJune 13, 2012 at 4:11 PM

    Her birthday was definitely a night to remember! It bro hs back a flood of memories looking at that sweet little face. Love her and miss her so much!

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  7. JannetJune 13, 2012 at 7:07 PM

    Perfectly expressed Ashley! They are both so very lucky to have you as a mama. Your way of writing is exquisite and deeply touching, by the way...

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  8. The SullengersJune 13, 2012 at 9:07 PM

    I'll never forget her birthday in the dark either :) I'm glad, even though we didn't get to know her as much as other family, that we were able to spend that special day with her! We will be thinking of you guys and Ledger tomorrow! Happy birthday little buddy!

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  9. KarenJune 16, 2012 at 12:03 AM

    My twin sister went to heaven when we were 2 years old, my parents did an excellent job at keeping the bond between the two of us. 18 years later and she is still the biggest part of my life. We have angelversaries also, and it is one of my favorite days of the year. I love my guardian angel. Ledger will be so grateful that you shared her life with him. I have been praying for you and your family since I heard about Preslee.

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